sorri tat i lurve eu

2007-01-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

oh yeah , finally the sch reopen todea ... so sian during the whole sch holidays !!
the stupid new shoes makes my leg bleeding !!
i feel vry fresh as the sch restarted again !
when i listened to the new sch song , i feel wanna to cry out , i don noe the reason .
i miss my dar dar vry much at tat moment tat was wat i knew !
i wrote his name on th paper when Mrs juan explain things !
in the new class , i don wanna to be somebodi , i just wanna to be nobodi !!!

i miss dar dar vry much without any reason !!
i online at night , he didnt turned up ! watever , i just miss him vry much , and lurves him much deeper than yerstday !!!
dar , thanks for ur lurves !!!!!!

2006-12-09T09:32:00.000+08:00

stay at home for this whole week , becoz dad wanna mi to improve my english , but im vry lazy , i didnt do watever he told me , im just tired , lazied ,watever it is , i found studying is such a boring thing , but it is important .. i will just do a little part , put in a little effort !!

nth to do at home , eating , watching tv , read story book , computer ,and nothing much ... wanna hang out with frends , but cant , i cant go out , i just don wanna to make my mum said anything abt mi , so i be good , stayed at home as they wished , maybe it will cause mi crazy ! but no choice abt it .actually , i wanna go to that concernt tat johnny didi invited mi , but becoz of the stupid study , i cant make it , wat a pity ! and it also cause i cant help mandy to print her sch homework , she lost all the worksheets , she wanna mi to help her to print , but i must stay at home , cant go out , so cant help , and i also don noe when i started work again , maybe tml ? or next week ? im not sure , now im just a died ppl !

i started to get over him , and started to like another person , maybe bah , i also not sure , just he makes mi felt tat he wasnt the rite person ! all the feelings was so wrong , and my mind was lazy to think abt it , so i don have any trouble abt lurve by now !

i miss him ,a little bit , not 2 much , so cant said tat i lurve him , i just wanna to chat with him , waiting for him to be online as he was said "see you tml " to mi , and he really very nice to me , ta hen zhu dong ! ya , i just
fond in him , but not lurve , becoz this is wat does frendship means ! ^^

2006-12-07T11:10:00.000+08:00

love BOA :)

MOTO
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIBAB-MvR1o

EVERLASTING
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YuYFnlgoYFw

DO THE MOTION
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MphCdwREboo

SPARK
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMpurKnC2y0

2006-11-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

~~~lonely xiaoxi~~~
when i wake up,i see nothing but four walls, there was nothing on them,just plain,black and white and nothing more. it was the same old choirs everyday,wake up,wash up,go work,come back. life was so dull,no colours,nothing at all.
i feel as if the world was just like old movies,made in black and white, nothing at all,i feel so lonely inside.cause there is nothing in my heart, it goes blank everyday,erasing all the memories. i feel so bored in my life,i feel like breaking down, i feel like walking around,finding something to do,though i am so tired i am bored. cause...you were never there...
i feel as if the world is gonna end. there's nothing meaningful in there,onli sorrows and pain. please come rescue me,i'm so bored now,lonely as it is,nobody cares about me...
i wish you were by my side,all day long and night. i feel as if you were the only one that will be there for me anywhere,anytime. but soon you left me,without telling me, no last words,no letters,nothing left from you...only memories... that were once dearly treasured by me... but now these memories are slowly fading away...if only you can come back to me.. i will do anything...

( written by QK )

diao , suddenli he wrote thise thing to me , said this is for me de ... thanks QK!!!! i don like anybodi rite now , this year , end of year results i failed , nw im buck in my english i wanna to be improve next year .... although im so lazy to do it , but i will try to do it as much as possible ! don say i like sumbodi ..its all overed

okay , today i was staying at home , becoz my face got swallen again , the stupid oucer lah , i cant eat things , but still have to eat , cant talks , becoz it is realli painful
i online todea for long time , i think , becoz i chatted with a new frend ...
and watched tv , played 5 mins's badminton , studied for a while , played organ for 15 mins , get scoleded from mum at 2 pm ( wat the hell lor , asked mi to study , to practice the organ again , why everyday just asked mi to these thing? can let mi manage by myself or not? u r so annoying )

yesterday (wed) i been hurts my knee ,it was pain and bleeding a little bit , becoz i played the badminton with my sis , then it was on a roof , i climed up ...tried to get it .. but it was too high , i stand at a roof which was at a second floor ,yet have to climed up to a small roof again .. in the end my sis was get up there and get it , becoz im too short , cant clim
yet i went to bath , the scrathes were vry painful indeed , but i can stand i think .. no ideas , have to ..

previous day(tue) as usual stay at home becoz it is tuesday , my music lesson's day , forgot wat happened on tat day liao , onli can rmb tat day i got saw a fs at clementi 189 bus stop .. a person i hate to see .. but still have to face it .. becoz still got chance can meet ... diao , wish they failed their o level ... hahah , i wish i can be a witch nw ... hahahaha -__-so sian ....

2006-11-27T23:39:00.001+08:00

my birth cake this year

it was black forest

the dress i wear on my birth during night

the dress i weared on my birth during day as i went to meet my frends

hey :)

saying chees? lol , don think so , should be yeah???

THANKS EVERYone

ya , tat is what i wanna to say to all of you !!

- wake up at 6 am sumthing and study my english(becoz my mum said i onli can go out if
i studied)
- after i read the story book by myself , i practice the organ
- bathing while my mum was cooking the breakfast for us
- dressing up by elder sis ( she said i must dress up niceli on todea -_-)
-10 am sumthing recieved phones ,sms from jianming , weiting , jianing and mingyi
-10:20 am my parents drive mi to bukit batok mrt
- i am the first person reached , so i waited them , i tot got lots ppl from my class ,in the end onli
got 2 of my best frend ,maybe this is the surprise for mi ?? hahah , they gave mi the present ,
and the activity was orginized by them ( go to kbox )
this is the first time i go to kbox , and i broke my mum's rule hehe , watever bah ...
we enter the room , the room number was 39 if im not mistaken ..
we sing as mad as we can , we dance as lousy as we can , we eat the awful lunch as much as can
2pm times up , we said bye bye to the kbox .... it costs $7/person
- jianing gone after goodbye to kbox , then i tot i would go to mingyi's shop , but .. becoz it is going to rain , so i decided not to go ( i didnt bring my unbrella ) ,said goodbye to mingyi at mrt
- called home , asked young sis to take the unbrella for mi .. ( wat the , she asked mi to buy the sweet for her .. diao , sweets no good lor ... fine , don asked mi buy so often )
- i received the sms from crystal xiao mei , she wished mi happy birth , and mandy also
- sisters went to buy cakes as they wanna surprise mi , but i don think so lor , becoz my stupid young sis put " happy birth day sis , i went to buy the birth cake for my sis " as her msn nick , and tat time i was using her comp,lol , and my elder sis also , she think im so stupid de meh? wat she talks to my dad i can hear lor , although not so clear , i just pretened i didnt heard anything , haiz ...

i don noe i am cold blooded or not , becoz all of them wanna give mi the surprise , example my familli , they tricked mi tat they onli bought a small cake , no more big cake , and it costs $1 onli , but i didnt feel anything at all , no excitements , no sadness ... don noe why , although i got laugh in front them ... maybe don wanna to make them no fun bah , but i also vry angry to my mum , todea is my birth yeah , she keep asking mi to study , to play my organ , yet get a little scolded from her , wat shit lah , everytime do this to mi , wat liao , hw can be happy if u forced mi to do those things i lazy to do ?????????

thanks to those pple

my famili
-daughter and daughter- in - law
- mingyi
-jianing
-mandy
-shannon( god daughter )
-choonhui
-crystal
-johnny
-jianming
-weiting
-and blah blah
-to all those ppl were beside me :)

2006-11-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

went down to help my parents workin again , at 6 sumthing am ....my dad come and fetch mi to the shop .. then sisters they have to go to my mum's shop by themselves

12 pm i already reached home , damn hungry , but don feel like to eat the lunch .. just eat a few mouths , then put it away , luckily im alone at home ..

i don noe my hand will shivering by sudden ,izzzit becoz of my gastric ? i don wanna to having gastric cancel so i must stay away from kfc , mc , tibits .. all those foods bad for health

3 pm sumthing , i watched enough tv , then started to clean the house , clean my books , study table , all the rooms (except young sis's ) hang up the clothes , wash own bed sheets n pillow set , mop the floor , do all the things ,then abt 5 sumthing , im realli hungry liao .. i eat sumthing to feed my stomach , then cook the green bean with yimi ..

no ideas wat time online , i have to said sorri to kai zai , i didnt mean wanna to lie to u , but becoz u r still a stranger to mi , so i have to be a little bit alert abt it , im sorri , i wont do it again , i just don like ppl lied to mi , but this time , i am the one , i jst don wanna the sad stori repeat again on mi ..

loading ...

2006-11-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

im so lost rite nw .. just like a kid lost on the street ..
nobodi cares , becoz i didnt cried out loud
nobodi knows ,becoz i didnt shout it out
nobodi notices , becoz i just keep it in silence
outside of the window , the sky was so dark , out of my expectant
im listen to all my favourite songs
sadness's tune makes mi feel lonely
all the memories pop into my mind ...
i don wanna to be alone , but i also don wanna all the missing occupied my soul
im missing u secretli ...sumtimes i noe all the things had been destinyed but i just cant stop it
im not the angel , i cant fly to be at ur side .. cant look at u from somewhere u didnt noe
this heart belonged to u for such a long long time
becoz of u , im became so unperfect ,all the hurst over my bodi
my lurve to u is all combined blood with painful
the waiting is a mistake , i shouldent wait the day u return
it is not i don wanna to having lurve , just afraid tat , lurve also is a kind of hurts
im dying , there is nothing everlasting in this world ...
lonely also can be very silentce , no sound at all
don say u lurve mi
becoz i care so afraid of losing

2006-11-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

11 am ,i cook the lunch for myself n uncle , maybe my dishes was 2 simple so it just taken mi very little time to prepare it .. abt 11am sumthing we had already finished lunch , then i recieved the sms from jianming , he asked mi weather wanna go out or not .. yet he wanna mi to ask all my good fellows ... diao .. okay lah , then i found a few lor ... haiz .. then faster bathe n meet them at clementi 189 bus stop lor

yo.. went out with frends todea ..(jianming,johnny,jianing,mandi & anggi ) it was queit fun .. second time hang out with frends at orchard !!
i hate those donation ppl at orchard lor , they forced we to donate , all the donation was a lie !!
but so unlucky all my good fellows cant escape for it ..
after the girls meet boys , we went for lunch , then slacking around , n becoz i wanna buy chocolate for my best frend in china , so the girls accompany mi to buy it , n i also buy $2.50 sushi for myself ..then we go to the STARBUCKS COFFEE shop , to buy the coffees , yo yo , we lurves coffees ...i ordered a PepMTMOcha-v it costs $7.30 , ermm it was vry nice .. haiz .. but 2 expensive i think ... maybe lah ...

6 pm sumthing reached home, young sis asked mi to buy the cup noodle for her , yup , i bought it for her .. then she paid back to mi

now 8:08 pm , my familli war started again .. young sis took my mum's money without askin her permission !! i realli don noe why she did it , if i were her , im willing to late for school not stolen the money as to take the taxi for sch .. the amount of money she stole was about $60 , izzit my wrong tat kept her money she owes mi ? should i pity her? no , i shouldent , i already told her tat she must think twice before she take the action , n she must pay for everything she did .. yet she never relized her mistake ...

the mistake she made very often was :
- stole money
- take my Baby-G watch without asking mi ( she also have her own Baby-G watch le lor )
- never adimit her mistake
- will not admit all the things she did (if the things were wrong )
- lied to everybodi

maybe we realli are extra ppl in this familli , izzit becoz of us , so she changed untile like this?
maybe she afraid of punishement so don wanna to admit the mistakes , but she will never noe , onece she admit the mistakes she made , ppl will always try their best to forgive her !!

young sis , can u just try to be brave ? admit all your mistakes, n be united with this familli , we pay out all out efforts in this familli , y just becoz ur wild then makes this familli break up again ?
i realli hope tat she turn in a new leaf ... i will try my best to change her ... my new target ..

2006-11-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

the boy

a boy lurves a girl very deeply

onece the girl furried with a small thing

he will feel vry uneasy n hurts

he don wanna to see the sad girl to hurt anymore

he just wanna to protect her ,wanna gives her the happiness

but .. nw ,he just wanna back the rights to noe wheather the girl izzit realli lurve him or not

girls's hesistate makes him hurts ,sad,totalli lost

he don noe wat to do , his brain was so blank ,maybe he is getting tired

all his efforts will never win the girls heart , izzit worthy to do those things for her ?

he didnt think much , he must wanna to noe the simple answer from the girl

but ,the girl hurts him , she didnt even noe tat her sadness was hurts a person who lurves her vry deepli , n pay all the attention on her

The GiRl

this girl lurves a guy , but not this guy who cares abt her , true lurves her

it is a guy who never wanna to notice this girl for a single sight

this girl was vry loneli , at this period , tat boy turned to her

maybe girls's heart was warmth again by this boy

so she decided to be with him

but , one day , the boy asked her weather she realli lurves her or not

she didnt answered , she said tat was all that boy's fault

maybe the boy already burried deeply in her heart

she just don wanna to embrass herself so she lied

or maybe she thinks tat they are not suitable?

been together with the boy , it was realli happy

but maybe it comes to the end , she decided to give up , she don wanna give the boy any hurts?

she onece decided wanna be together with him

maybe is 2 lonli , nobodi cares abt her , or ..she realli nids lurve (wat a selfish thinking )

2006-11-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

wake up at 6:00 sumthing todea i think , becoz i have no time to check the time ... just wash up n go take the bus straight away after wake up ...

8 reached the shop , we started to work ...durin my lunch time , one of volunteer asked mi n my sis to donate $2,or$5 to help a girl who is having the cancer ..sis asked mi to take the money , tat time mum was on the phone , then i take the money for donate lor , after the man walk away , mum straight hang up the phone , and come to scold us ... wat the.......ya , maybe becoz of the stupid NKF'S thing , so my mum don trust those donation any more ... of coz , im going to do the same thing as my mum ... i don wanna to be cheated ...

maybe it was 7:00 sumthing reached home bah , i slept on bus again , diao ... the bus queit crowded todea ... i go to cook the dinner straight away after reached home ... this dinner was cook for uncle , my uncle had been come to my house from china , n helped my mum to work .. n he was a vry nice uncle ..

diao , wat the hell , every time i wanna to cook the rice then became porrige , if i wanna to cook porrige then will become the rice .. wat the ... n it happened todea 2 . wat a embrass ...
lucky im vry smart , i add down the sweet corn ,carrot's soup ( got take out the sweet corn lah )
then become the porrige lor ... diao diao diao but it was queit nice bah , uncle eat abt 2 bowls abt it ... ai , my uncle just like simple thing ...

now 11:21 pm , wanna sleep liao , tml still have things to do ....

2006-11-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

wake up at 5 am todea earli in the morning ,i hang up the clothes in the washing machine , then wash up , then 5:26 am we ( mi , my elder sis & younger sis ) go to downstairs , my dad's car was at downstairs waiting for us ..

reached the stall , we started to help ! but all the prob was started after my parents left the stall . my parents left the stall not around 5 mins , my younger sis already rushed to the other stall n buy her own breakfast , then she cant stop herself from eating lor ... sumtimes ask her to help , she said y i did not go n do it by myself , wat the hell , i already did my part , tat is wat she have to do lor ... always said mi nvr pay her own responbility ...

one of the aunty vry good , she gave her the pimple cream , n teach her hw to use it .. stupid young sis onli noe wanna go for her school's carnival , never think of the paretns , izzit she too young ? i don think so ! while im 13 years old , wat am i doin ? i nid to help the parents to work , n study by my own , yet didnt hang out with frends at all !!! how many times i had been hang out with frends while im 13 ? i think onli got 15 times bah for 1 year , then nw is her turn , she should be more matured , noe wat is more important , wat is not realli important .. she must have to noe abt it ...

2006-11-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

sian todea , yeah yeah , no nid go down n work todea , haiz ... so happy , but vry sian , becoz elder sis was fall in sick , so not fun lor ..

three days before im having stupid stomache .... luckily my mum give mi the wat medician last nite , then todea okay liao .. thanks mum , but i think ur medician give mi a bit late .. it had been pained for 3 days lor .. ai .. nvm , nw i have to take care of my sis , sian .. lucky tat she don have fever lor , but vry boring , my dad wanna mi to listen to news radio , n then tell him wat the radio had been read .. ai .. sian ..

2006-10-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

in the morning abt 9:50 am sumthing i meet zirong at clementi interchange , for my surprise jessica also at there 2 .. we take 189 to school , n come to sch's bookshop to order the books , zirong nid to be abit troublesen lah .. becoz her booklist haven come yet .. then do a few process to order the book lor ..

10:15 bah , then we decided go to orchard .. omg , this is the first time i go to orchard with frends .. n i didnt hang out at orchard tat often .. reached the orchard we go n eat the PASTAMANIA for lunch , also becoz wanna to eat this , so we came to orchard .. zirong treat mi n jessica , mi n jesscia treat her the drink .. haha after eating , we go to take the newprints .. yo yo , new prints ..haha , then we go for shopping for awhile

take 106 with jessica for go back , i slept on the bus again , i fell in aslep , -_- stupid jesscia found tat it was funny ...sleeping on the bus vry funny meh? lol don care , i contiuned my dream ..

2:00 pm sumthing reached home , wow so relaxing nw .. haha , all the family members were at sleep lor , i on my computer ..then stupid jianing suddenli sms to mi say tat she is coming to my house n find mi , diao , i can out again lor .. my parents were at home , in the end , with her stupid stubborn temper , she reached my house , n i hav to fetch her but tat time , my mum wanna go out with mi also lor ( my mum also followed mi on the way to fetch her, it was so terrified mi ) wa liao , she came n find mi just wanna to chee chat with mi .. wat the .. fine , since u reached liao , wat can i do ? lol , talk to her for a few mins , then my dad , mum , elder sis , came down liao , we r going nw , no idea , have to go , then sorri for jn , she hav to go back ..

parents bring us to vivo city , wow , there was so amazing , i like those clothes there , but ... hw to say , those clothes r vry vry expensive .. haha .. we just go n try for a few , then don have much time left ,we faster go n eat , i afraid tat the checker will come n check the car , so i take the car key from dad , sis n i faster go n buy the drink from the seven 11 , then faster run to the car park , becoz daddi n mummy were on the way to car park also , we throw away our soft drink ( mum hate us drink it ) n run as fast as we can , sis wearing the high heel shoe so can not run , it was all count on mi , lol .. diao , run until so dirsty , but so lucky , my mum got buy the cane drink .. haha .. xing kui xing kui .. haha

*i have to face the fact by tonite .. things will go on on every second .. it wont be forever on same thing .. yup , i noe it .. i feel it .. hehe , i don noe wat is true , but i have to accept watever was in my mind ..

i wont be so silly to be a bitch or change myslef .. n makes u likes mi .. maybe it is myself think too much , or maybe wat .. i cant find anymore excuse for myself either for u .. im tired .. im become so weak jus becoz of sum1 tat doesnt realli belong to me .. nope , i must wake up from this fairy tale .. u r not mine ..

2006-10-27T18:14:00.000+08:00

lol , just came back from working for a little while
wake up vry earli todea , my mum lah , she called mi lor at 7:14 am , then i faster wake up n washed up , then go n take the bus with my elder sis !!!
on the bus no seats for us , so both of us must stand lor , but i feel so sleepy ... at the half way finalli got seats, after we sat down , becoz we sat at the last row lah , then can not sleep as well ...

almost 9 am reached the shop , mum cooked the frog porrige for us as lunch i think ..
after a few hours , the porrige finished selling , then my parents said nid to close the shop already , but they also said if can , we can contiune selling then all the money we earned will be our pocket money .. haiz , n they also said i may use those money for paying my new spec , okay fine , set ...

after they left , mi n my sis watched the shop , but hor , not a long time , i fell in asleep ,then i wake up straight away i ate something from the shop , like im got ghost possed on mi hahah..
in two hours , onli selled abt $16 , so i onli get $8 .. haia , n my parents went to Sheng Gan bought the foods for us , n go back home wih us ... haiz , it was good ..

YESTERDAY

i saw R gor gor a lot times in the mornin , haha .. but after a while then all the sec4 disappeared , no ideas go where liao ..
i didnt watch the soccer at all , got crap with mandi ..
then at the last assembli , im vry surprised tat ms an called mi , n i sat at another row which is not belong to my class ... haiz yet mrs juan jk with mi tat , i got caught , im vry puzzled at tat moment , i didnt do anything wrong , y got caught ? in the end , i relized it was wat top reader's prize .. diao ...
n after school , i got a called from my mum , she asked mi faster go back n keep the clothes , becoz it is reainig soon .. n i buy the ice cream , n faster go back with my n zr .. haiz ..
it was 2 late , after reached home ,the clothes all were get wet .. sorri , clothes i didnt save ur ..
then my n zr ate the lunch at my house , the go downstairs to packet haha , then abt 4 bah , i feel asleep , then i don noe y i wake up when they r going to leave ... haha , maybe got the feelin lor .. haiz .. they left abt at 5 pm lor
at this day , got one strange thing happened on mi , zx called mi , becoz his gf suspected mi n him , wat the .. i nv contact with him for such a long long time lor ... but nv , after hang up the phone , becoz im worried , so i sms to him , asked his gf to read it , haha , then abt 6:30 i think ,
zx called mi , n we chatted ... it had been for more than 1 hour , haiz .. we chat nonsence sumtimes ..
then becoz im lazi to cook the dinner , elder sis also lazi to cook , she asked mi wat to cooked , i said anything to her , so she got anger don wanna to cook lor .. fine ,don cook then don cook lor , but after bathing , she asked mi again , maybe she afraid tat my gastic will reacted again bah .. haiz .. then cooked it lor ..n i washed the bowls , haha .. then blah blah ....

* it is hurts , i think u r bluff to mi bah , but still wanna to believe in u don noe y
it is hurts to think she is ur princess , not mi ,
it is hurts to relized tat meaned nth to u
it is hurts tat u nv concered mi ..
it is hurts to decide to give up u ..

2006-10-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

is this pic nice eough ? it is hard to take ..

the times cant flow back , i cant turn back anymore ,i only can look forward from now on ...
todea very sad , back to the old 1 LY ,10:50 pm a bit feel wanna crying
i failed my english ... n the teacher wanna to meet my parents at next week wed ...
i don like it to happen like this , nobodi understand my situation ..
watch the Gong , it makes mi feel more sad
everything was burried in my heart , nobodi noes , nobodi understand , nobodi can be heard , nobodi i can tell to , i used of it
am i lucky ? becoz i still can be in express next year , but a few of my frends cant ..
when mrs juan tell mi tat i nid to stay back for a few minutes after back to school
it makes mi so unesay , i aksed wat is tat abt , she said don ask so much , i will noe after back to school , wat liao
then during the whole trip , i was feel so uneasy lor ...n i slept again , in the bus , every time i did it , i don noe y
yet i saw he put up tat thing , it makes mi feel hurts .. i wanna talk to him but since he put it up so ... hehe , forget it
am i a fool ? so would fall in lurve u , yes i think im am a fool

2006-10-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

yeah .. im very happy todea
my school had been arranged a combine activity for jtss & gmss .. im in group 3 , the team coach Benjamin was very nice to us i think .. the sun was so hot yet we have to walk abt 3 hours i think , i used up 3 or 4 packs of tissue lor , just cant stop sweating .. i listened the mp3 all along while doing the activity !! i slept on the bus again , becoz ... i don feel like to talk , don feel like to do anything , so just sleep on the bus lor ...but just onli can take a short snap

take 189 with minyi todea , she treat mi bubble tea , haiz yeah , coffee, ice blended ... i drink it half way then somebodi took it away from mi .. saw jesscia , leroy , jian ming , john at clementi interchange 2 , they take mrt i think , so i continue wait for my bus to come ..

it was queit late when i reached the home , after i reached home , without expecting , mum also come back ... diao , cant watch tv liao , i faster turn off the tv , n walk into my room .. onece my mum come back , my young sis get scolded again .. it happens everyday .. sumtimes becoz of it i feel very moody ... i hate noisy at home , all those shouting n scolding .. cant just keep silentce for mi ?if just for 1 day also can , i will be very grateful ..

i slept when elder sis is bathing , then my turn ,just finished bathing , it is dinner time , todea mum so good allowed mi to watch tv , haiz , the prince hour was so nice n funny , i lurve it ..
8pm , i started to read the story to my dad , n after tat , i practied my organ .. this time i enjoyed to play the organ .. becoz it concerned abt my bright future , i must master it very well

2006-10-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

went down to help my parents workin again .... i woke up at 8 sumthing i think , becoz very tired .. no strength at all , so sit in front the tv , don noe watch wat show .. eat the breakfast in front it 2 !!! then mi n my elder sis rushed to take the bus , we reached there abt 12 .. 1 sumting parents left the shop n go do sumthing mean important to them ...mi n sis look after the shop .. becoz last night i slept too late , so no energy at all , after they left for awhile , i fall in asleep very soon !!

7pm we back to home , i watched the tv again , then bathed , onlined next.. frends want chat with mi , but i don have the time , i nid to practice my organ , my parents is come back soon , if im not practiced , sure my mum will nag at mi lor , ai ... sian lah ..

my counting was queit good , i just practiced 1 song , then my mum back liao lor , 2 things she will do after come back home , 1 is ask mi to practice the organ , 2 is ask mi to read the stori book to my dad , see , she is askin mi to prepared the stori now .. diao ,damn damn .. annoyin should i say ?

i hate my young sis , she very jerk ..she put her clothes on my bed , n i asked her to take it away , she yelled at mi , so no respected , i realli wanna to slap her , i talk nice to her , she yelled to mi , n i asked her to do it not only for 1 time lor , so unreasonable , her own clothes put on my bed yet said she didnt , don wanna to take it , wa liao , she always face the stupid computer lor , big deal arh ? can chat with the guy tat she liked ? so can yelled at mi 2? always msn , msn , i think i will sent the virus to her com on someday .. dad asked her to throw the rubbish , she seems wanna to kill herself , throw her temper , now , nobodi wants to care abt her , nobodi , beoz nobodi can do it .. she just so .. jerk .. it is wat she should deserved? maybe bah , sometimes , we treat her good , she treat us like shit , so no ideas , that is wat she chose .. cant blamed anybodi , she just so lazy to move her body .. hate her , always try to step on my head ..
i warn u , im not tat so easy to be bully .. i just wanna the familly to become so messy , i nid to concentrate on my studies n future lor , don destroy it ........i mean it ..

2006-10-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

hahaha , im having a lot fun todea .... but it makes mi so tired ... ermm but i lurve it 2
- meet jn , daughter and dream of who at jurong east liberary , they vry funny yeah , said meet at mrt station in the end go to the liberary ,im a little bit lost of the direction lor .. -_- but it shows tat im vry clever can find the way by myself , hahahaha

- 4 of us eat the lunch , it was payed by sum1 , this is the first time , sum1 pay the lunch for mi , thanks , gradful .. haiz .. but a bit not used of it .. becoz it makes mi feel like owe tat person sumthing like tat .. n then , we went to watch movie ( don noe wat is the movie's title,becoz it wasnt decided by every1 ) but again , tat moive not bad ... vry funni .. after tat , we went to take newprints .. yeah newprints yeah .. it was vry nice lor , show ur next time bah ...all those things happened above was free , thanks for tat 1 who paid for us ... i will return the money to u de ..

- 3 sumthing i think , if im not wrong lah , i meet ming at west mall , he damn funny , haha , maybe it wasnt he very funny , it is i found tat both of us meet was very funny ... we go for a short walk , about 10 mins lor , then we seperated .. becoz i nid to go to clementi for music lesson , maybe if don have the lesson then can hang with him a bit longer .. haiz

- after music lesson , i rushed back to home , abt 6:20 sumthing ! then 7:00 i went out again ,with my elder sis ! mi n she was on the way to meet jn , 3 of us are going to swim !that place i never beend there before , but jn wants us to be there , so we take the bus lor n see which bus stop she was at , then go down lor ! she introduced a little girl to us , her name called yue yue , wat a very cute girl , but a bit wanna querrel with her for fun ... i played paper , sissors , stone with her , she lose almost the time .. haiz ..

- 10 pm , mi and sis arrived the kfc , then eat it as for our dinner .. 10:20 sumthing we take the bus back to home , during tat short period , happened sumthing very funny again .. the details was difficult to tell .. haiz .. but hope it will be a cherish moment ..

* missin u , wish u can be arounded me

2006-10-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

wat liao , todea is a bad day again ..
- get scolded from ms lee just becoz i didnt hand in my landtern prepared works in the mornin when she came into my classroom .. i got called her lor, but she didnt heard .. hw can i hand in if she didnt turned back ?
- don noe who is tat lah , kicked the foot ball to mi n my frend , n tat cup of drink was gone , where is tat cup of drink? of coz was spilled everywhere lah , n my uniform get wet , but its okay lah , small business
-after reached home ... argggg , my mum cut my hair ..damn angry with it lor , she not the hairstyle artist rite , why always wanna to cut the flinch for mi , wat the big big shit ... arrrggg ..cry liao lah , stupid mother , always like tat , my hair non-business with u lor , y don wanna mi to cut my hair at the shop , save money , save money , only noe save money , never care about my feeling ,the money i will pay by myslef lor , u so kpor for wat , hate u , hate u , arhggggg
- i havent practiced my organ , yet tml is the lesson , sian sian .. ahhhhhhhhhh damn angry lah
-get back all the exam papers, the results was not vry good , yet not vry bad ... but i think it is not pleasant for my parents ...

* im not sure wheather u still likes mi or not
but i don noe im worthy for u to lurve
im just a vry unperfect girl ..not very suitable to havin lurve

2006-10-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

i went down to help my parents workin todea , from sumthing around 11am until 6 pm sumthing
mi n my sisters go to toh pahyo shopppin centre to buy those things we wanna , n top up the bus card
around 9 sumthing we reached home , n now 10:07 im online n bloggin
my parents also just come back , i found my mum realli annoying , she asked mi to practice the organ just after come back for awhile , i also just finished bathing lor , like im a super girl can do everything or wat .. just vry anger with it .. and hor , she always asked mi to study , it caused almost of my activities durin school holidays was gone

her expection from mi : learn organ very fast and play well , get the japanese language tuition during the holidays ,help her to work in the shop ,improve my english as well ( wat the .. then all my activities were gone )

* i try my best to give up and ... done well in my target

2006-10-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

thur- i find a excuse so didnt go for working , n stay at home doin thos stupid houseworks
fri - go for working , it had been whold day , vry tired after coming back
sat - didnt go working , it was my sis turn , i tot dad will wanna mi go down with her 2 , surprised mi , he didnt either mum ...

8 am i wake up , don noe y cant fall in sleep after all ! last nite chatted with daughter , n daughter -in-law on phone , then didnt help john xiao di to solve his prob, im sorri john xiao di ..
but i already done my best .. wat i can do is give u some advise .. the ending is on u ...

i watching tv for whole day , but i got do the housework hor , mum ,dad don said im lazi , i also got cooked for my own lunch hor .. haiz haiz .. but still eat alot tidbits .. n i must admit tat im lazi lah , becoz i go for noon-sleep again .. ai .. just vry sleepi , but hor , todea i got practiced the organ abt 2 hours lor , yeah , my goal , i must go for it .. yeah yeah

* i don noe wat u think , i can feel tat u r staring to avoid mi , to hate mi ,found tat im annoyin
i realli don noe wat is lurve , if i noe this would happend , i wont started it
i also noe vry clear tat both of use is impossible , i will try to control myself for ur sake
lurve must pay sumthing for it , so my paying is to stop lurve u ....since u already give up
keep the memories u gave to mi , keep u in my heart , nobodi noes , i wont say it out
it is the end .. everythin was empty ...thanks by the way

2006-10-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

yeah , finalli todea is the last paper, so relaxin haiz haiz ....
after school , mi , jn , n man go to kfc for lunch .. we havin girls talk for more than 1 hour ..
then we go to jn's house , mi play jn's computer as using the qq to chat , man n jn is watching the funny movie , they laughing like siao .. actualli we wanna to watch ghost movie de ...but nvm
then mi changed into jn's clothes , becoz she wanna mi go to tat computer games shop with her ...
before tat we go to MC to set up the computer for man..
wat a unlucky time , the shop keeper said tat we r not enough 16 so can not using the computer ,must be after 6pm , siao stay for so long time ...of coz not agree
then we went out the computer shop back to MC , to find man .. i eat ice cream again , hehe , yeah eat ice cream again ... we saw our swimming coach passed the MC , then i go out to talk to him for a short conversation ..
4 pm sumthing i was at clementi interchange to wait for 106 , 106 take wat a long time to come , but don noe y i willing to wait for it .. haiz ... the answer was in my heart
back to home , watching the tv until 8pm (of coz got doin others things during tat period lah )
i feel unwell , yet jn wanna mi to online , i hate online , jus hate online... hate to open the harmful computer .. but no choice ,she nagged at mi like siao ... online then sent her the pics .. then offline and eat the dinner , n went to bed to sleep .. haiz , a simple day had passed ...

* from ur action i noe tat ur heart was not on mi
from ur eyes i noe tat im wasnt in ur heart
from ur avoiding i noe tat u starting to hate mi
from ur talking i noe tat u found mi was irrating
speachless , don noe wat to say , leave mi alone , i wanna to be alone , im get used of it .. can i have my ice cream again ???

2006-10-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday not fun .. go to wt's house .. his house vry beautiful .. i wonder wat my dar dar's house look like .. hais..dreaming abt it ...
daddi , u must get well as fast as u can .. i don noe y ur eyes will be so swallon as tat , but i wish tat u can get well faster ...
todea's science paper vry difficult , i didnt finished all , i hate myself for didnt preparing it well , i must work hard , n work hard ..
mi , minyi n zirong take 189 to clementi interchange , becoz minyi wanna to cook at my house , then we planned tat want go clementi's supermaket to buy things for cooking , but becoz i hate to clean up so we cancle the cooking plant .. haiz , so sorri minyi .. my parents don like the house become so dirty as well !!! we bought the bubble tea near the MCdonal , then take 106 to my house , minyi seem so unhappy .. ai .. nvm , it was my fault ..but after go to my house , we packed our lunch under my HDB flat's food stall!
after arrived my house , we eat our nice za cai fa .. play pillow battle , watching fun tv, they slept on the sofa while im practicing my organ , i wake up them at 4:05 .. but minyi continued sleepin , zirong sleepin 2 but she was watching the tv as well ..
after awhile , they wake up and go back ... i continue to watch my tv , i have enough practicing my organ , im getting ready for the lesson ..
back to home again , daddi n younger sis were at home , i have a called from my mum juz i finished bathing , omg , i have to cook the dinner tonite , so bad luck .. so long time nv cook , don noe wat freak food i will be cooking this time again.. haiz .. don blame mi if the foods is not nice .. becoz i not realli enjoyin cooking sumtimes , but sumtimes i realli wanna to cook it ...

one of my frend had been xing shao rao by sum realli realli bitches .. i hate them , sumtimes realli it makes mi cant control wanna to beat them , but i cant do it , as a good student , i wont do it , haiz ... i also hate those blind guys to lurve those bitches , don they noe their truth face? or wat ? i realli wanna to learn kongfu skills .. haiz .. im dreaming agin .. haiz haiz ...

* i try to give up .. n corncentrate 90% of effort on my studies , 5% on organ , 5% on playin .. sorri no more % for u .. gud nites ...

2006-10-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

finalli , can relax for a while .. the stupid geography paper n history paper finalli end !!
the list wat i had been doing todea
- meet mandy at clementi interchange at 620 , she late , but its okay to mi
- after reached school , didnt study much becoz make fun with frends
-daughter wanna mi must go for the date ,i cant make the promise
-8:00 paper started .. 10:00 recess ... 12:23 paper ended ..
- daughter waited mi outside the classroom , she was sad that im nt comfirm going or not
- go to kfc with minyi , jianing , weiting .. meet other frends on the way ,then mandi and anggi stayed with us ..i packed the meal for my sis
- after eating go back home with minyi , jianing .. watching the " the recycle " ghost movie , haha
- i vry sorri to my daughter , tat i cant make it ... becoz i realli cant go ... hope she understand ..wish she had a nice day .. n can with tat person 4ever ..i gave their my blessin
- 3 sumthing, parents come back ... 4 sumthing frends go back ...and i go for a snap ..
- the dinner was delicious ..i ate a lot ...
- watch tv for awhile ... washing the dishes ... mum hurried mi for reading the stori to dad ..dad was a bit emo .. dad wanna mi practice my organ ..then practicing my organ lor
- becoz of less practice .. mum scolded mi ... dad unpleasant but still enjoy the music .. i told him tat was becoz i nid to study for my exam , he said at least must practice for half an hour although im having the exams .. and blah blah ... wanna mi learn to use the mind map to study my subjects ..
- chatting , blogging , listen to music ... not sleepi at all although it was 11:10 pm

*** i always wonder tat wat was in his mind ? wat does he thinks ?? i hate myself , becoz i had been a little bit selfish .. i always slacking with those guys in my class ,played fool with the .... but when i noe tat he was at the same place with her .. i will imagine .. imagine they ... they ...ermm ... then jealoused .. y i behaved in this way .. i must try not to think of it .. haiz .. sorri .. i imagine 2much ..

2006-10-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

izzit my wrong ?
i don noe , maybe yes bah
i just don like ppl nag at mi , or ask mi to wait n wait ..
it realli annoying ... i don have the patient ...
every1 can be my frend , but may not be my best frend ...
our relationship maybe vry close ,but it also may not means anything .. just we feel lonely , so accompany each other .. simple answer ..
if u don like a person , plz don hurt the person anymore , although tat person treat u unkind sumtimes ..
i will do according wat i think , wat i had judge, wont listen to what u say
i don noe who i can be trust from my gang ... sumtimes realli tired of this kind of frendship ...
nid to be the middle man ... help them to talk niceli to each other .. maybe they still 2 young ..
and i don understand izzit best frend must stick with each other no matter doing wat???

or maybi im 2 cold-blooded ?? didnt think for them ?? i adimit tat i abit don like to talk to pplz ..
don noe why ... maybe it was because i use to be this way i am ...
k .. nid to countinue my revision liao ... hahaiz ... so tired ... sleepy .. with u in my mind , i cant study well ... maybe ... i also don noe ...

2006-10-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

im vry bad luck todea yeah , my sis took my keys with her , so i cant go out without the key , yet she must rush back from the bukit timah ... wat the ...in the end , becoz i don wanna to waste money , so i didnt take taxi , and take the bus without anxiouse ...haha , like doing it by gu yi ..

i talk to mr kenny tat i wanna to excuse my detention ... after he questioning mi , finalli , i can change the detention time on wed .. ai .. detention , it is the 2nd times i doing detention since i was be in school life so mani years ...

after school i go to the detention area to get back my ezlink .. ai .. nth to say abt myself
sum more , my fav fruit been out of sale , my durian , durian , where r u ?? why i cant see u at the fruit stall ??? cry cry ...

i take 189 with my frends , minyi , zirong n mandy ..
minyi n zirong go to my house to eat lunch together and play ...
they play hide and catch .. -_- i cant join them , i must cherish the time to practice my organ .. arh arh ... stupid organ lesson ... im tired of it ... but i lurve it ..
but zirong change her nice hand bag with my plastic bag ...wat kind of this solution is ??
just becoz she think tat i take the plastic bag is not suitable to my tat suit ...

wat a realli bad day i had ...
first time late for school ... arh arh .. forget it them ...
good nites ...

2006-10-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

ermm, the science extra lesson was vry sian ...
i don like the two class joined together , it seems so stuffy..
my problems come again ..
i noe myself have hot temper , sumtimes i cant control it , i juz don wanna to do those things i don like to do ..
why u wanna mi to do the things i don like to do ??
frendship means wat?
use of each other??or wat?
i just don understand , don understand everything ,it puzzled mi ..

1 thing surprised mi .. i didnt sleep in class todea , yeah yeah ...
ai .. sian ...

2006-10-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

everything seems so strange to mi
i realli wanna to noe wat does he thinks ..
maybi he lost the feeling 2
while he likes mi , i didnt noticed
when i fall in lurve him , he pretened didnt see
it is silly to fallin in lurve..i agree with it
i cant stop myself to think of those thing
if he treat mi 2 good , i will think tat he likes mi
as if he ignored mi , i feel tat he no longer lurves mi
sumtimes , i don understand y so many ppl wanna BGR ..
does it really good ???
to me , it was not so good at all
falling lurve , and hurts each other tat we lurved . in the end , onli left a wound behind ..
wat is the point ??
haiz .. watever it is ... i just keep him in my heart .. nobodi noes ..

diao ... my sis wanna mi to grow taller , my frends wanna mi to be a bit more slim ..
why ur wanna to change mi to be more good ??
i changed myself to wat a bad side , ur wanna to change mi to a good side ..ai .. let it be natural ..

i hate my mum ...
every night come back , the first thing she will do is shouting my name ..
ask mi to do things.. nv think tat im was busying with my staff
and then .. came to my room talk to mi with wat a long face ..i hate to see tat
like i did sumthing wrong to her
sum more , always asked mi to read the stories to my dad while i realli rushing in my staff ..
wat the ..................... tired of all this ....why cant leave mi alone ?? why just cant give mi sume peace? ????? when the house can be silence in warmth ???when i can have it ????

maybi i will never get it ... tat kind of home ..tat i wanna ..
nvm , at least , i still can dream it ..
time to go .. sleeping time , gud nites all of u ...

2006-09-30T23:09:00.001+08:00

todea , vry boring , stay at home ,doing nothing ..
earli in the moring , sit in front the tv , after tat about non then online .. until 2 sumthing then i feel dizzy , go to the bed , sleep like pig .. until 5 sumthing .. feel more unwell ..walk like a drunker to hang up the clothes !!

feel sorri to johnny di di , he wanna chat with mi online , but i go and sleep .. sorri .. johnny didi ..

i wanna to revise the works , but no moods to do so, i don noe why
maybe vry boring bah , haha , i just hate boring staff ...

-__- the blog so difficult to handle , i cant do it by myslef , see now don have the tag box and the links .. where are them ?? how come so difficult to do ??

both of us online almost whole day 2day ,but without chatting ..
is this telling tat is lurve ??
don noe , no ideas , now my mind so blank .. blank still blank .. cant think of anything ..
" why , why should i care , since u werent there when im scared ......." sang by avril , title : why

sian .. sian ..sian arh .. borin , borin and borin ...
11:23 already , sleepy liao , gud nites .. to eu .. bye~~~~~~

2006-09-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

... todea was the 1st paper of my both language..
maybi chinese is okay lah , but .. english i don have the confidence ..
im damn angri with myself lor ...cant even speak in proper english , cant even write in good grammer ..
now in this own blog , to write those stupid english as praticing my english ..
hope tat can help mi to improve in my english ..

* god , i pray tat i can do better in the next paper .. haiz.. i am dreaming .. dreaming .. dreaming of wat ?? no ideas .. him ?? old frends?? old stead?? or just dreaming without thinking of anything in my mind? i think should be this answer .. dreaming with blind ..

2006-09-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outsideI'm standing here but all I wantIs to be over there
Why did I let myself believe Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really careI thought you were my fairytaleA dream when
I'm not sleepingA wish upon a star Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and youI swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singingAnd when you smiled
You made me feelLike I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is emptyI'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a songNow I know your not a fairytaleAnd dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and youI can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floatingWhile I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you